Timeless Words From a Bossy Chatterbox ....or WHAT was THAT?

by RohanaRaven Zerbino, edited by Marco


Hello my friends, today a "guest contributor" writes in about her experience of finding True Love in Second Life ®.

Rohanna is Serbian--English is her second language--so she has what to me is a very cute "written accent."

She is also my Second Life ® "little sister." And like many little sisters all over the world...she is a bossy chatterbox. She constantly tells me how I ought run my blog business....and my life too! How is it that such a "little sister" can be such a "big bossy?" And what I HATE the most is that she is ALWAYS right! "Dang it sissssssy, couldn't you be wrong now and then?" CMOK sister! "Thank you for all your dang good advice!"

{Editor Marco's note: "Cmok" is a Serbian phrase for "Kiss." It describes the sound your Aunt Ethel makes when
she grabs you after your school piano recital and places a big, squelchy kiss on your cheek.}

Rohanna does not disclose in her article the identity of her Second Life ® lover, but I know who he is...sheesh she can't stop talking about the guy. So "Mr. K." you BETTER treat her nice 'cause if you don't Ro will haunt you for the rest of your life! So without further ado, I bring you RohannaRaven Zerbino's fine article, titled..."WHAT was THAT?"

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"RZ has a boyfriend, RZ has a boyfriend“ ...

SHUSH THERE!!! BACK OFF!!! And no Marco, you can NOT know who he is. Stop giving me that innocent, "blink, blink" look of your big blue eyes! The last thing I need is that 999,998 Second Life ® people know who he is. And what YOU know, the whole darn Second Life ® knows!

Ok...ok.. I take back everything I said before about Second Life ® "love“ relationships. Happy?!? But hey ... you can not know what papaya tastes like before you try it, right? So ... if you will be so kind as to put down that ass on the chair and close that wide open mouth of your’s, Marco, maybe I could find some english words to satisfy your curiosity.

To tell you the truth, I am suprised myself. Despite my belief in the idea of the three worlds we are living in.

What did you think? That Second Life ® is only the "second“ world? Oh, but no my dear, it is not.
We are living in three equaly important worlds at the same time: the material world, the spiritual world and the world of "energy." Each of those worlds is vibrating on it's own frequency. We know a lot about the material world. We THINK we know something about the spiritual world, but to be honest, we do not know anything about the world of "energy" that surrounds us. Well there IS the part of the planet Earth where people know a lot about the "energy" world ... much more than u and me. I couldn’t prove anything till my birth in second life. I just could feel some waves from time to time in those moments of meeting people in real life. But then Second Life ® came into my life.

It was easy to make friends here. Not even being aware of what we were doing, we opened our energy channels to some remote souls on the other side of the planet. The moment that I could feel that remote energy finding its way via unseen cables and touch my heart, I knew I was right; and that energy doesn't know about material measures of distance and time. Too attached to material world, we judge others by their clothes, gesticulation, the color of their eyes, and that is ok, it should be like that. We have to protect ourselves somehow.

Oh, yes, sometimes we make mistakes by letting people into our lives with wide open doors. We never expect that we will be hurt or stay without ourselves, making endless compromises to give life to something that should’t even exist in our RL lives. But, hell, if we learn our lession, where is the damage? So, a redefining of a RL friendship in a Second Life ® relationship was not nessesary. It was just the same as in RL. Trust, laughter, devotion, loyalty, crying on the shoulder of the friend when I was hurt, sharing good and bad. Same formula, just another way to do that.

The crucial proof, that this--that what I call "energy"--really exists was Second Life ® sex. I can not speak for the "other side,“ i.e. my sex partner, but during the Second Life ® sex act, I really felt like I was being "touched“ by someone's hands, his skin, his moves, his smell; hell, I could even feel the man inside me sometimes! Maybe it is just that my body has learned to listen to my thoughts, and to do and feel what I want it to feel. Almost all my life I trained my body to be good partner to my thoughts, as all musicians must do. Switching from playing an instument to "playing Second Life ® sex“ was easy. The words and animations on the screen during Second Life ® sex gave me the freedom to express myself--at the same time--in my RL sex, (mom, thank you for teaching me that love of the body is the most beautiful "material" feeling).

"Energy" that was given and taken made for some of the sweetest moments of my "material“ Second Life ® life. But even then, I was aware of the difference between real and unreal and I didn't want to "have sex“ with one man more than once. It is one thing when you get bored during sex in RL. You have a choice to leave or to fake it. But here you can be "in Second Life ®" with your mind, while your RL body has the freedom to light a cigarette or drink a coffee while cooly typing some meaningless words while dying of laughter. I really didn’t want to be a "hot – chat“ girl, and thank God I have avoided this.

But nothing, nothing in the whole bloody world(s) could have prepared me for HIM! Don't look at me like that, Marco! I know I sound like a schoolgirl, blushing in front of a boy who has given her a polished red apple (to use his own words)! Anyway, I’m all confused; needing to redefine everything that I thought I knew about relationships from all the years-gone-by and try to get back on my feet again. And I just dont know where to start.

I’m used to falling in love in the usual way: seeing somebody in RL, liking him, discovering him slowly OR being hit in-the-head like with thunder-and-lightening. Eye contact, little touches, butterflies in the stomach, saying stupid words, laughing with the thought "oh god what has come into me to act this silly," wondering if he likes what he see as much as I like him; blushing from time to time, looking for those little signs to prove to myself he is "interested“. Being a creature from the "material world," I never thought that this "energy" could be so strong in Second Life ® and act that way so that I could feel all those things in this Second Life ® world too. I was so full of denying the possibility that something like that could happen here. A male friend asked me if I had a bf, and I told him that I did not believe in that concept, in Second Life ®. The idea that I could be seduced only by written words. Well, damn, I'm a child of the era of high communications, I'm not living in the 18th century in God's name!

Well it happened. He seduced me like I'm 18. I feel happy after so many years of feeling dead inside. How did he do that, I have no remote idea! All I know is that my heart beats wildly when I see his name on the screen in those annoying little blue windows. We share all our secrets; he knows everything about both of my lives, as do I about his. We can spend endless hours together in Second Life ®, not even talking, just working on whatever we have to do, either on my building platform or in his house. Just that feeling that he is around makes me feel calm and able to concentrate, waking up all the creativity in me. I have not felt this level of trust in years. I feel lonely every second when he is away. And to tell u the truth, he is the first man after soooo many years that I want to make love with. "What? What do I mean? What is the difference?" Oh lol my friend, the difference is huge. Mere "sex" is just something routine, ahm, more "material" almost like just a physical need of your body. On the other hand, "making love" means the sharing of emotions, joys, fears, hopes...everything! It is the love of soul, the love of heart and the love of body all in their material shape.

Ha ha ...yes I know, it is odd, speaking of RL material shape and Second Life ® in the same sentence. But hun, I'm willing to exchange all the sex in the RL world just for a week of "life" with him in Second Life ®! Anyway, if I disappear from Second Life ®, look for me in some insane asylum! I just cannot stop smiling and I'm afraid if anyone asks me why that I won't be able to keep my big mouth shut. All I know is that the "energy" of his love has found it's way to me via thousands of miles of cables, earth, sea and air and finally touched my heart, soul and body.

OK Marco, I will not tell you anything else. I know you were expecting every "juicy" detail you can get, but really there is not much to say. No use. You must feel this for yourself. I can not find the words even in my own language to describe these feelings. You will have to be satisfied with this. And who he is? That will stay my little secret, my friend.

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